Without your love, I am no use to anyone.
http://www.soccers.fr/index.php?showtopic=32306
Spaniards.
I name that the WYGHOSTFACE
I can't comprehend says:
hahaha
mister rocket man says:
NOOOO
I can't comprehend says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
I can't comprehend says:
Then what?
mister rocket man says:
uhhh.
mister rocket man says
short blck hair non sadako-ish face
mister rocket man says:
longer name, sounds more profound!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Torres is KING.
You're a dead fib.
Blew fifteen bucks on Biology prelim papers today. Fifteen bucks, sucks. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. My nose keeps running! ): I used up CharGoh's tissue today. Sorry yeah. It was those HUGE big packets you carry around for BABIES. Kinda. I wanted to die during math, cause it was really cold. & my nose just leaked, ): Tomorrow I'll finish my doudou. :D The one I bought on Sunday.
Fell asleep just now & awoke thinking it was the next day. My time-space continuum is distorted. Tomorrow all I want to do is sleep some more. (: Maybe cause there's no more AI. ): I'll be waiting until NEXT YEAR. That's like damn long.
Every place, every sound, every taste reminds me of you.
I can barely recall, but it's all coming back to me now.
What's-it-called? Thinking you've been at some place but you just can't remember? Oh yes, deja-vu. I feel it without you.
Monday, May 28, 2007
New video. Still Torres though, sorry non-Torres fans. But yeah, I LOVEEEEEE the guy. :D
Anyway, chinese O's papers 1&2 were today. It was, okay? Wait- No comment. If you screwed up your paper, there's still the EOY one, RETAKE IT.
The hamsters at GreatWorld pet shop are CUTE. Today I finally found out what Anything & Whatever was. They are actually just many different flavours at random. Take your pick & I guess, it's LUCK. Quite dumbbbbbbb. Anyway, I like hamsters. End of story.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Please be gentle, I'm still learning.
I have decided to make a new video. I am still contemplating on what material to use(House of carters, Torres clips, Movie clips?). Perhaps a combination of the above.
There's no earthly way of knowing
What was in your heart, when it stopped going.
I think I shall use a Robbie Williams song. Now I just have to pick one. How tough can that be? Very. Angels, supreme, advertising space, she's madonna etc etc. Perhaps Make me pure.
There's no dignity in death
To sell the world your last breath
They're still fighting over everything you left.
For the record, I'm not chinese. To the teacher who didn't believe me, you can jump off the building for all I care. It still doesn't make me chinese.
& don't ask my family background, it's complicated.
Thanks.
I was scared but I wanted to.
Good luck to everyone who is taking their O's MT tomorrow. Don't forget to bring your ICs and dictionaries! :D
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Aaron & Kaci.
M. Shadows!
Dai(Dave)
Nando. :D :D
Leooooooooooo.
& to top it allllllll off, one of the best Lee Ryan songs ever! Okay, I'm biased. (:
Nice right? Haha. :D
I can't comprehend.
I wonder what tomorrow brings, I fear the uncertainty of the future. Yet it brings so much excitement in our lives.
Friday, May 25, 2007
This is my new number.
I don't like my report book, period.
By the way. I love you VERY VERY much. :D Refers to every single one of you who is alive & breathing & reading this right now.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
The Essex girl who's darn cool.
More English stuff.
When the calls don't go through, it's not cause I'm dead.
I think you're getting in my head. So I shall back off before it's too late. Sometimes when you don't know what to say- When the lines aren't rehearsed, you make the stupidest mistakes. You become almost... Amateur. In time, I'll be burning what I wanted to say. We ride and we burn, like how we burn our lives away every time we fall. Have you ever wondered what people are thinking? If they wanted you to give a damn about them? We're always chasing selfish ambitions. We forget to look back and take along those who have actually been there for us. We rather take what we want. Human nature; The essence of hate and jealousy/The epitome of evil.
Tough love girl, you've got to learn. Too bad we always walk into the walls before we realise they're there.
You know you're smart, you know you understand. So tell me again- Why is this cycle of destructiveness repeating itself over again? I see the ugly side of life rearing its head, daring me to make a move. I'm trying hard not to.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Life feels. Okay.
Heroes is an amazing show.
Emo/high day.
Saw CGs from early this year. Again.
People went bollocks.
I type in note form.
I saw Jeanne Wong. :D
(Highlight of the day!) Freak who smiled at us from STG. Turned back & just smiled at us & they asked me if I knew that freak. No, I do not. Or at least I don't think I do.
Goodnight.
Good luck to the world of english and spanish.
Pride is at stake.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
You asked me to enter,
Then you made me crawl.
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt.
Life sucksssssssssssssssssssssssssss. Still. Emphasises on the STILL part. Results sucked. Life sucks. Hmm, all else sucks. Kinda. Let's all contemplate suicide, carry out mass genocide & wipe out this whole 'emo' generation. Then we can live happily without any fears or doubts. Step 1: Jump off a building. If you survive, please proceed unto step 2, chop your head off. If you are unable to do step two as it is too gory, plase proceed to step three. Step 3: Quit breathing. Confirm sure die. Okay, enough for now. I shall not bore you with death techniques.
On a bed of nails you make me wait & I wait without you. You may give me all, but I'll always want more.
Monday, May 21, 2007
I don't know who reads this anymore. But yeah. It's kinda SHOCKING when you tell me, you know? & I'm not going to give you an answer yetttttttttttttttttttttt. Tsk! I know you read this. I know for sure you read this. Not now. Now very stress. Don't stress meeeeeeeeeeeee.
I don't wanna die with lots of white hair okay!
I didn't go to school today! :D I slept 10hours in total, that's damn long. First time in my life! Cool.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Cheers
Thanks for everything
You hung me out by my heart
You're just so selfish jean
Yes you are
Back to insomniac days. Last night had about 3-4 hours of sleep, I just couldn't sleep. Maybe I didn't want to. All I could think of when I fell asleep was Drogba. Then I thought of X&Y. They both support different teams? Maybe its fate. I don't know.
Hey you
Threw it all away
By holding everything in
Hey Jean don't rock the boat
When you can't swim
I feel like I'll draw you near, then when you get too close, I'll just disappear. Don't you think so? I know I'm starting to do it again. Perhaps we're all over-reacting huh? Draw near, take a sip & threw the rest away, no matter how sweet.
With a perfect understanding
of the finer things in life
A quite alarming knack of knowing when
to twist the knife
Selfish Jean
I know I've been running from the question. I just can't answer it. I know what I would have said- But I can't say it. I don't want anything to happen that will jeopardize anything. So when I think up of a clever cover-up I'll tell you that. Sorry? But I don't mean it. But I still hope you'll forgive me.
Here's to you
Who read everything
Left it out on the shelf
There's no one else to blame
Except yourself
Last night, tonight, every other night. The nights keep getting longer when you're awake & alert. It makes you seem as if time isn't slipping away so fast. Maybe you can just capture the moment and hold it a little longer? But somehow it still passes & then you don't like what you see/feel anymore. So you just move on and say goodbye.
Well a perfect combination
of good etiquette and charm
You keep the chocolate biscuits
wired to a car alarm
Selfish Jean
No, I'm not being emo. Not elmo either.
Well I'm standing on my own
And this house is not a home
It's so sad to see you go
Things are high, things are low
And it's good to know you know
If you've got nowhere to go
Well you could spend the night with me
There will be no guarantee that I'll be here
I'm just hungry, tired & I haven't thought of the clever cover-up line yet? My life seems such a mess doesn't it? One day I'll laugh when I read this, so hello future me. (: A smile. See, not emo/elmo. Those days are over. I still thought of an answer...
In the morning
Or any time that you call
I hear you snoring Jean
Through the wall
Somehow I'm just so sure I can't love you. Then again, maybe I already do. The piano analogy! Haha. First you learn how to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules & play by your heart. Nah, this last paragraph is just crap. (So uh, ignore this last paragraph. It's random rantings, heh!)
So hey
Here's to everything
To peace and love in our time
Ah Jean the slate is clean
I guess we're fine
Saturday, May 19, 2007
The little people
Have very little left to say
Their words had all been shortened
They didn't really seem important
And if I saw you
Then it was just another face
But I still don't blank horizon
Lining on the human race
How was your day? Explain your answer.
Today was jam-packed. :D It was awesome, amazing. Firstly, I had all my meals free today. My sources of free meals came from my cousin and dude. I had lots of pizza in Sentosa plus chicken bryanni in Ikea. Also, I swam in the ocean with a kid on my back and had a blast in Ikea. These resulted in my being a happy kid. Sorry I forgot to bring the present, :X
However, my day is also quite nerve-wrecking. Right now, the ManUtd/Chelsea match is scaring the shits out of me. Besides that, I was seriously anticipating the Ikea thing & was really kinda nervous. Kinda.
Overall, I rate my day as awesome, amazing & wonderful.
I still can't comprehend who you are, you're still a mystery to me. Your mystery, it keeps turning me on.
Friday, May 18, 2007
In Woolworths
Look! BIG BEN.
At the famous market place, featured in Notting Hill, the movie.
The fountain/kid's play pool at Tate(?). Maybe it was some other museam. I can't remember.
The park at Buckingham Palace.
Soon to be birthday girl, RACHIE. (: Pictures from London.
We live in this crazy world.
It's you, it's you.
You're all I want,
You're all I need,
You're everything.
Hi, I haven't been here in awhile. I actually intended to close this, but I decided to leave this baby open- Until my 1000th post, then I'll decide what to do. Currently this is post 781. It took me about 2years to post that many posts.
Life check. English, passed- Badly. Combined humans, passed- Okay. Chinese, failed- I passed 3/4 of the sections okay! -.- Chinese just pissed me off. I swear my chinese & english composition marks reversed.
This week was an interesing one! (: Spent Wednesday morning in PS, kinda shopping. At night there was the birthday dinner. Happy birthday Grandma! :D Thursday had tuition in the morning, then went to Vivo to meet cousin & co. Watched Blades Of Glory! What a funny show. It was uncencored, literally. There were loads of not so good stuff for kids to watch. If you know what I mean. Haha! I recommend it, if you're the White Chicks type of movie goer. :D Today. Got back papers. Thats about it. My life isn't that bad. Nuh-uh. We just live in a troubled world. Word?
Loads of work to be done! Tomorrow there's the party at sentosa(HAPPY early-BIRTHDAY RACHIEEEEEEEEEE!) and at night there's DINNER! (Gives you the biggest wink ever) Sunday is going to be another long day. There's tuition at night. Morning going out. Sounds good, no?
Shoutout to all my mates: Hi. (:
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
My life seriously feels like one hell of a big ice box. Everyone's so fucking happy. Now that this is locked, I can post & THINK no one is going to enter. I know some of you all crack the passwords by viewing the source. Go ahead. Just don't tell me.
My stomach feels clenched & just empty. I don't know what to do. I can't tell you to say yes & you definately won't say no. I feel like I'm going to be torn into two. You know what I do when I can't handle things. Yet you disapprove of that one thing I do so that it won't hurt so much. I can almost feel the cold steel on my skin.
I know that its my fault, you don't understand. You're nothing like the one I used to know.
I've got this ice box where my heart used to be. I'm so cold.
Once upon a time, there was C & D. So nobody's perfect, we all make our mistake. That you can't deny. D's broken, C's whole. Broken people aren't exactly perfect happy beings & they always end up misunderstood. While C on the other hand, has pretty much a far more perfect life. People with more 'perfect' lives get away with alot more things as they are 'understood'. (Scary thing is, that's how they always seem.) Well, obviously anyone would choose C over D.
If nothings perfect & they are. Then isn't this all a facade? The past month has been an eyeopener. They say be strong, or you'll fall. Hello? The tough fall hard. & sometimes you can't pick yourself up from the fall. Only someone else who has been there would know & help you out.
It's like cupcakes. C has got lots of icing, but when you get past it, can you accept what you get? What if it's all stale and rock hard? D may not have any icing at all, but that's what you get. The icing makes you come back for more, but when the icing's all gone, are you going to waste the tears?
There's no excuse. I've got this ice box where my heart used to be. I'm so cold.
We're standing in a timeless dream. It's call a D-R-E-A-M for a reason. Word? You expect so much in such a short time. People can't give. I don't trust her with you.
Monday, May 14, 2007
I don't think I'm taking the exams as seriously as I should be. The b\past few days have been spent here, blowing all my time on this internet and playing games. I haven't actually touched emath since tuition. Not good. Tuition was quite abit back.
CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR.
The shallow & the shallower.
Okay, sorry about the random stuff when you scroll down, I found this on MySpace. Daisy(Ex-SClub8) posted it, I have no idea why. But it's kinda cute, so I did one of my own. (:
Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following...They MUST be real places, names, things...NOTHING made up! If you can't think of anything, skip it. Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial.
And remember - you CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.
. Your Name;
Marianne
. Famous Artist/Band/Musician:
MUSE!
.A song:
March On (By Good Charlotte)
. 4 letter word:
MARI
.A Colour:
Maroon
. Animal:
Monkey!
. Country:
Madagascar
. Boy Name:
Mark
. Girl Name:
Michelle
. Occupation:
Missionary! HAHA!
. Celebrity:
MILO VENTIMIGLIA <3
.Food:
Maltesers
. Something found in your kitchen or bathroom:
Milk.
. Reason for Being Late:
My hair dye ran.
. Something You Shout:
MAKE ME SOME PANCAKES!
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I had a nightmare
I lived in a little town
where little dreams were broken
and words were seldom spoken
MY 777TH POST. I SHALL TYPE EVERYTHING IN CAPS, BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IT. (:
I tried to reach you
but all the lines were down
Summer rain began to fall
on this little town
I DON'T LIKE SPIDERMAN3, NO SUBSTANCE. SORRY TO ALL THE SPIDEY FANS, BUT I STILL DON'T LIKE IT. I WANTED TO SLEEP DURING THE SHOW! & THE ONLY OTHER SHOW I WAS DAMN BORED AT WAS LADDER49. I COULD EVEN SIT THROUGH CHOCOLAT. GO FIGURE.
And we had a peeling
but now we all faked to see
we never look at one another
only when another suffered
I'D LIKE TO SAY THANK YOU TO A&B. MUCH LOVE.
And if I saw you
then it was just another face
but I still don't blank horizon
lining on the human race
THEY SAY TGIF. I SAY FF, CAUSE TGFE. HEEHEE.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that stands forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that stands forgiven
I like to ask questions. My favourite one is 'why?', really big but really subtle. What's with the elmo-ness? But all that stands is forgiven.Life is like a korean drama, don't you think? It's like Full House(If you watched it, you'd understand), just that life doesn't have that fairytale ending. It's just stuck at the middle parts, where one minute everything goes well and the next- Well, you know what happens. I don't need to elaborate.
Exams are really... Boring? The math paper was so tiring, I nearly died. Go listen to Within Temptaion - Forgiven. Then tell me if its nice or not. For those who loved Angels, you'd love this. (: Chase your demons away.
Left in silence.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Hi, I'm a Milo Ventimiglia fan. (Shakes your hand) Nice to meet you. Here, look.
How come we don't even talk no more.
You don't even call no more.
We don't really keep in touch at all.
& I don't even feel the same
How come we hug no more?
& I heard it through the grapevine we been beefin' now
After all the years we've been down
Ain't no way no how
This bullshit can be true.
WE FAMILY, AIN'T A DAMN THING CHANGED,
'less it's you.
"Either you're fearless or you're just stupid.
I think it's the latter"
We say bullshit like its got meaning, word?
Monday, May 07, 2007
All Aaron Renfree fans: http://item.slide.com/r/1/115/i/Iph0uGe-6T_TlIpaDjRwLrPHZKS0fJ4G/ http://item.slide.com/r/1/43/i/mKMgShAO5j_Sy6wpu9uXuRYIJVziM28K/ By the way, there are lots more- All with different girls. It's not real, if you thought it was, its all acting. Like he'd put real pictures of that on MySpace.
Got milk?
Sunday, May 06, 2007
I've waited all this time The song is just amazing, pretty much prefection for FCF. (: FCF lives on forever, no matter what, you hear me? No matter what. I am obsessed. & at the rate I'm going I'll msot probably fail half my exams. :/ I need motivation to study. But no, only distraction after distraction. My mind's just not foucsed right now. To those who've wished me luck, can I say I'm sorry? I swear I'm going to do badly, this is depressing. I shall go back to the world of Elmo, where nothing goes right but it isn't really that bad. Life feels too close for comfort, you know? It pushes you out when you want in. When you're just about to discover... But you'll never know.
Counting minutes as they pass
Searching for a signWishing for the best
And just when my hopes were wearing thin
You taught my heart to love again
Saturday, May 05, 2007
"Ooh, that's a foul & its in the box! Man U get the penalty! Ronaldo takes
it....... HE SCORES! Manchester United lead 1-0!""Chelsea can't afford to slip up now."
Friday, May 04, 2007
Meet Ernie.
PRACTICALS ARE OVER & I didn't touch the bunsen burner at all. :D Not even today, I did all my experiments without the bunsen burner but still got the right result. I hate bunsen burners! Note, it isn't detest but hate. Strong words. Haha! I'm happy, because the practicals are over, (: I think I'm going to fail my chinese ca though! ): I'm sad. I'm going to have chinese intensive the week before O's. Entire week of chinese, I hope I can manage, then goodbye chinese forever(Perhaps not?). Studying period comes, :/ Sixteen isn't far away! I feel like I'm growing old. I want to grow older, but I want to go back to 2005. How confusing can life get?
Ps, Check out the video. There's some really hot pictures. No kidding. :D
Even if you threw my heart away, it'd still be yours. I don't care what they say, because only your words are right.
I'm one hell of an elmo but I know you'll always, always be there, even when the conversation has gone dry. Even when the tears are on the brim, slowly seeping out. But I don't think I've ever said 'thank you', so here it is, thank you. Thank you thank you thank you. (:
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Nicholas & I. Before last night, I think that was the last time I saw him, lol.
They say that I'm frozen, what can I do?
Finally, both language papers are O-V-E-R. :D Went for dinner last night & sat at a table in which nobody talked to nobody? Kinda. I finally met Nicholas(My 2nd cousin) & I didn't know who he was until I left the thing? HAHAHAH. Best. I sat next to this girl called Claire(? I think) & I have no idea who she is. The only relative I talked to on that side of the family WASN'T THERE. Oh, all of the people at my table are like smaller rank than me. They're all my cousins kids. Damn. I feel old, don't you? Oh, I hate people with seriously common names, cause harder to find background information, tsk. Haha. So name your child something really weird okay? :D
Who is Leon Lim?! Apparantly he's some Campus Superstar person who sang at the dinner last night. I only know he sang 3 chinese songs, of which 1 is WEIYI. The other two... Um... Yeah, chinese songs. Hah! Justina gave him a flower & then Ignatius(? Correct name? haha) dad gave him the flower PLUS flower vase. Haha! What a joke.
Okay, TAKE CARE. :D